Thursday, April 30, 2009

Anticipating Mother's Day


So many of us have posted about this.... the upcoming Mother's Day.

There are a lot of emotions running through my head... and my heart about this Mother's Day. I am so extremely thankful to have two beautiful boys on this earth to share it with.... but things were supposed to be so different. We were supposed to have our 3 beautiful boys on this earth to share it with. Nicholas would be 6 months old by then. Just sitting up, taking cereal from a spoon, smiling and cooing tons, watching his big brothers with pride. I would be smothering them all with kisses as I thanked them for their homemade crafts and cards. I would be loving them all to pieces...

I think what terrifies me most about this Mother's Day is that others aren't going to realize how difficult it is going to be for me. I will put on my "happy" Mother's Day face, visit our own mothers and try desperately to enjoy the day. That's all we can do.

10 comments:

Never forgetting Gregory said...

I will know how difficult it will be for you. I am dreading the day that will be all about the other mothers...the ones with living babies... I will certainly be thinking of you and all suffering mommies on that tough day. I can't wait for it to be over. Hugs.

angie said...

i know...i am dreading it too. i am filled with a swirling anxiety about what to do. i'll be thinking about you. xoxoxo

Fireflyforever said...

As you know, we've already had Mother's Day here in the UK so I understand your fears. I hope your day turns out to be gentler than you're expecting. That was certainly my experience. I felt the absence of Emma so very terribly but was just overwhelmed by the love that surrounded me from my husband, other children and my own mum.

Lindsey's mom said...

My first was not fun..I decided to just "be" and not worry about anything. I made it...it is definately a valley. God Bless

Shanti Mama said...

I am dreading putting on the "happy" face.

Paige said...

I wish I could skip this day, stay in bed and sleep right through it. I'll be thinking of you on that dreaded day, and hope that others will realize how much you're hurting. xo

Carly K. said...

Lea-
I'm thinking of you and praying for you. This will be my second Mother's Day w/out Will and I have that sense of dread/anxiety that you were talking about. Last year was tough...it is a weird thing to be a mother, to celebrate this day about being a mother w/out one of your children. I know there are no perfect words, but please know that you will be in my heart and thoughts on this Mday.

Emily said...

I think I am staying in bed that day. DH usually give me breakfast in bed- he can just also give me lunch and dinner in bed, lol

Kyles said...

I will be thinking of you Lea. Enjoy your precious boys and know that Nicholas will be watching you all play.

iheldanangel said...

I will be thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers. Sending you lots of blog love, and thank you for all of the wonderful support you have given to me on my blog!! hugs

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