Tuesday, October 22, 2013
Nicholas’ Birth/Angel day is Thursday, Novemeber 7th. It will have been 5 whole years since Jim and I had the incredible opportunity to meet our third son, face to tiny, perfect face. Five years since we were blessed to hold him in our arms… smell him… kiss him….talk to him… love him.
I am struggling with 5 years. Every year is a milestone, but 5 seems truly unimaginable. When Nicholas died I remember genuinely wondering how the world could continue to spin… how the stars still shone… how the birds still sang… Our world was drastically halted in that moment and it seemed beyond unfair and cruel that time didn’t stop.
Flash forward to today.
I couldn’t be more grateful for time.
Time to dull the intense pain.
Time to begin to heal our broken hearts.
Time to try to forgive myself.
Time to remember and honour Nicholas.
Time to realize how much love he has brought to our lives.
Most of you will remember that we have been marking Nicholas’ Angel Day with a special and unique event each year. Together, with an amazing support system, we have created life long memories on what is an extremely emotional day for our family.
This year we will be travelling to Ottawa on November 7th. To be honest, I have had a hard time accepting this truth, however, we have come up with a plan to continue our tradition of honouring Nicholas’ memory on his birth/angel day.
I have been busy putting together more Comfort Boxes. We will donate 6 of them to a hospital close to where we are staying in Ottawa. We are more than comforted to know that some families may find some much needed solace from the items we have provided.
I am saddened by the fact that we will not have the opportunity to again share this day with an abundance of friends, family and supporters. However, I am encouraged to know that we will be surrounded by our “hockey family” as we navigate our way through this latest anniversary.
In the past, the events have changed, as it will this year, but the meaning will always be there. It is so important to us to have a positive focus on what could be a terrible day re-living horrific memories.
Nicholas’ legacy lives on and that is what it is all about.
We continue to heal our broken hearts by remembering and honouring our special little guy every day. We do this together, with love, perseverance and with the boundless support of amazing family and friends who have been there for us every step of the way. We thank you all.
With Love and Gratitude,
Leanna, Jim ,Evan, Kyle, Madison and Angel Baby Nicholas Reeves
“I would rather have had one breath of his hair, one kiss of his mouth,
one touch of his hand, than an eternity without it…”
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