Peaceful Father's Day

To my amazing husband and Evan, Kyle, Nicholas and Madison's fabulous Daddy..... we all love you so much.



Daddy's Love

Your daddy loves you oh so much
I see it in his eyes.
Every time we speak of you,
He looks up to the sky.

We talk about you often
And wonder what you’d be
If you were down here with us,
With your family.

Daddy is so strong,
His strength surrounds us all.
We lean on him for comfort,
He doesn’t let us fall.

But daddy hurts so deeply,
He misses you so much.
He feels blessed to have known you
And to have felt your touch.

He’s proud to be your daddy
And to have held your hand in his.
He kissed and held you close that day
Forever you’ll be missed.

We love you buddy… xo xo
Mommy (Leanna) – March 2009

Butterbugs and Ladyfles

There is this ladybug.

Beautiful. Red. Tiny. Perfect.

It fills my dreams.

In my dreams this ladybug has wings.

Big, gorgeous, wings.

Like a butterfly ladybug.

A butterbug. Or a ladyfly.

The wings are a mosaic of colours. Bright. Soft. Gentle.

In my dreams it caresses my cheeks. Lights on my shoulder. Glides around on the breeze, yet never flys too far away.

It's antics are as if to tease me and I imagine Nicholas being a mischevious little boy who enjoys playing jokes on his mommy.

It's closeness fills my heart with comfort... for I know our little boy is never too far away.

It's touch allows me to feel him again, if only for a moment.

It's presence is a soothing reminder of the little boy I so desperately wish we got to know better.

Those are the things dreams are made of. Those are the dreams I never want to wake from.

Love you buddy. xx

Kisses to Heaven

"Okay, Madison, time for night, nights!"

"K, Mama! My kiss Daddy. My kiss Ra Ra (Evan). My kiss Ky Ky (Kyle). My kiss Nicky"... as she blows kisses over the banister to her brother's table. Pulls at my heart every time.

Our precious little rainbow... she's awesome.